I am broken, but thankfully, I am also under construction. I am thankful for my brokenness, for without my brokenness, I would likely not rely on the Father as I do each day. I HAVE to rely on Him, to turn my life and all control over to Him or I simply would not make it.
Naturally, I am selfish, but He is making me selfLESS...turning my focus to love and serve those around me. I am quick to anger; however, He is showing me to correct my children in the gentle and loving manner in which He corrects me. I am shy...not that it is a sin to be shy....but He calls me out of my shyness as I give Him control and He guides me out of my usual comfort zone as I speak to acquaintances and even strangers in an effort to show them the love of Christ in simple ways. I am self-conscious, but He shows me that I am His precious creation, a daughter of the King, made to radiate His beauty. I get caught up in the hustle of life, rushing my children through the daily activities, yet He shows me how to slow down, enjoy both the priceless time that I have with my children...HIS children. He shows me the wonders of His creation all around us that we tend to pass by without notice...the little "love notes" that he has formed for us personally. He is showing me ways to teach my children to notice the joys and wonder of His creation, as well.
It is human nature to dislike discomfort; however, He has shown me that if I am comfortable, I should be on alert--to stop and see what I am missing. Personally, if I am comfortable, I am not listening to what He has asked me to do. If I am comfortable, it typically means that I am becoming stagnate, and thus useless to the Kingdom.
Yesterday on the radio I heard, "Grace is when God gives us what we don't deserve. Mercy is when he doesn't give us what we do deserve." That is so true! I fail. I fail daily, but Father's never ending grace and patience continue to amaze me. I am broken, and He is slowly, but surely helping me to become the wife and mother that I am called to become. His job is big, but He is bigger! His job will not be complete in this life, but one day I will stand before Him in awe and His work will be complete.
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